Excuse my unplanned hiatus. I’ve been caught up in the throes of life. A few posts back I wrote about losing my grandmother and half of my neglecting this blog had to do with dealing with the aftermath of that, being there for my family and then dealing with the aftermath of that, too. The other half has to do with happy news: I was accepted into a MA in Publishing program with a college in the Philadelphia area. That being said, the subject of this post is appropriate: The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho.
The Alchemist is one of those books that I always heard about and in the midst of another book I would think: “next, I need to read The Alchemist” and when the time came I’d forgotten about it. So I’m glad that I finally got around to it. I quite honestly had no idea what this book was about, I’d just heard the name so many times, so I really hadn’t any sort of expectation about this. To my surprise, this book was about something that I’d been attempting to put into practice for the last two years: The Law of Attraction. It never comes right out to say that, but that’s what it is: “When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it…”
As I said in my post about Wonder, I think that all things happen for a reason and some books come into our lives at just the right time, and this was one of those situations. Without meaning to, I’d read three books, almost consecutively, having to do with living the best life I possibly can: The Power of Now, The Soul of All Living Creatures, and The Alchemist. These books are in some way guiding me, they are my own Alchemist, showing me the way to get what I want and be where I want to be.
I’ve been on a journey of self-discovery over the last few years. While I really love most of the people that I work with, I strongly dislike my job. Its alright for the moment, but its not something that I can continue to do – it crushes your soul to do something every day, for 9 hours a day, that you don’t really care about. So over the last few years I’ve tried to figure it out. I’ve decided I was going to be a life coach (oh, the irony!), a veterinarian, a project manager, a yoga guru (LOL!), you name it. And each time, those things fell through and I couldn’t figure out why. So in practicing the Law of Attraction, I learned that I should stop thinking so much, stop planning so much, and just take time every day to do something I love to do. Over the last few months, I’ve been making time every day to read. I’ve read more books in the last few months than I ever have and I’ve also started this blog. I came upon this college in the suburbs surrounding Philadelphia that offers a MA in Publishing and I thought that was perfect, that was my answer! So even though I had a horrid GPA in college, I applied and this past Monday, I got my acceptance letter.
So here goes! In taking this step, I am getting to do so many things that I’ve been wanting do to so badly for years. I get to go back to school and work on my Master’s degree in a subject that I really am passionate about. I get to be the adult I’ve been trying to be and move, get my own place, go to a new city, and start a new life. I get to get a new job. I’ll have to work full time while I’m in school and even if I stay in the same industry I am now, it will be a welcome change while I work on my MA. All this just by taking one step, by doing one thing for myself.
Coelho writes: “‘…at a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what’s happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate. That’s the world’s greatest lie.'” For a while there, I believed that lie and I did lose control and I was absolutely miserable. It made me sick. I had to go on disability in order to get treatment for my depression and anxiety 2 years ago. I’ve been trying to cope and trying to cope but coping is not living. Even if I wind up having to slave away in a cubicle for the rest of my life, I’d rather be doing something that I love to be doing inside that cubicle than talking myself into getting out of bed every day.
So this post was more about me than The Alchemist, and that’s okay because I needed a “me” post. It’s okay to be all about me sometimes.